Chapter
116: Flashback
by Nicky
Voiceover by Virginia Vestoff: “Barnabas
Collins and Julia Hoffman have tried the impossible: to cross the boundaries of time and space
that have remained closed to them for the past year. But now they have succeeded, and find
themselves back in the year 1897, where Barnabas has become human again … while
Julia finds that she is, once again, a dead woman.”
1
1897: The East Wing of Collinwood
“We
can’t leave this room,” Barnabas said.
“Not now … not in this time. If
we do, we run the risk of destroying everything Vicki worked for. Everything she gave her life for.”
The
ghost of Julia Hoffman flickered urgently with spectral luminescence. “We need to leave this time,” she said. “But how?”
“This
room,” Barnabas said, noting how unchanged it seemed, as filthy, as shadowed
and cobweb-cast, as it was in the twentieth century. “It sent you to the future after our return
from Parallel Time, did it not?”
“Of
course!” Julia’s ghost exclaimed. “This
room could also take us backward in time …”
“Or
forward,” Barnabas said grimly. “The
fact is, we don’t know exactly what it will do.
We have no control over its powers.”
“We might not,” Julia said instantly,
“but I may.” Her lips curled into a smile that bordered,
Barnabas thought, on triumph. “Somehow
my spirit was able to travel back in time to help you. That’s the reason the Enemy was so interested
in me, and how it planned to send me back to you in 1968 after it killed me in
2014.” Her voice, which echoed with
etheric energy, grew louder and more powerful with her excitement. “I can try to send us to 1840, Barnabas.”
“Your
energy reserves,” Barnabas said. “It’s
too dangerous, Julia.”
Her
eyes, spectral as they were, were flint.
“I can do this.”
“I
don’t want you to fade away forever.”
“Trust
me.” Her eyes glowed now as well. “Please, Barnabas. I know I can make this happen. I feel it.
I know it.”
“Do
it,” Barnabas said suddenly. All his fears
and doubts were forgotten. Her
excitement was contagious. He could feel
his heart hammering in his chest, and he exulted for a moment. He was human again. Her cure, he thought, Julia’s cure held
across time and space. What a wonder she
is. What a wonder indeed. “Do it!” he cried.
Julia
closed her ghost’s eyes. Her body rose
into the air and hovered there. “1840!”
she cried, and threw out her arms.
Nothing. They remained where they stood. The room was unchanged.
Julia cracked one
eye. “Do you hear me, powers that
be? I am a ghost, which means I am not
human, which means that I have special powers.
Well, you’re going to let me use them all, right this moment! Do you hear me?”
Barnabas felt a spark of
fear. “Julia –” he began, but something …
something was happening.
She had begun to spin
around, faster and faster. Her face
registered comic surprise, then giddiness, then glee. “Yes!” she cried, whirling, whirling, and
whirling. “Take us to Collinwood in the
year 1840, powers that rule this room!
Take us there … now … now … NOW!”
There
was a sound, some sound, horrible, a rending, tearing sound, a bird screaming,
a million birds all shrieking with one voice –
Barnabas
held up one hand and covered his eyes to prevent them from being blinded by the
glaring white light Julia’s spirit exuded as she spun, faster and faster, until
the room was full of light, and that sound like alien shrieking, like the
wailing of the damned –
2
“The
will does not include new and improved Collinses we have never heard of until a
mere evening ago.” Gabriel Collins, sandy-haired,
mustachioed, nearing forty, and paralyzed from the waist down, steepled his
fingers and then glared from behind them up at his sister-in-law. “Just so we’re absolutely, a hundred percent
clear. Father made no provisions for
surprise guests, no matter how many portraits they just happen to resemble.”
For her part, Samantha
Drew Collins, her titian hair tied up into tiny ringlets framing her face, instead
of offering him a blistering rejoinder (which, she knew, was exactly what the sorry bastard wanted), spun
away from him furiously, and stalked across the length of the drawing room. She almost made it out the door, and then, at
the last minute, spun around to face him again.
It was, she decided, too good of an opportunity.
“You
astonish me, Gabriel,” she said in her most imperious, most commanding
tone. “But then again, you never fail to
astonish me.”
“Thank
you,” Gabriel said, nodding regally in her direction.
Her
smile grew withering. “And you never fail to astonish me with
the depth of your greed,” she said, hissing, “and your ineptitude.” She enjoyed watching the smile fade from his
mouth, and drew herself up proudly.
“Your father isn’t even dead yet, and already you and Edith are clamoring
about the will, like … like a pair of jackals!”
“We
aren’t talking about Edith or me, dear sister-in-law,” Gabriel said, his smile
having returned. But now it was tautly
stretched across his mouth in a sneer.
“We are talking about Barnabas and Julia Collins, the brother and sister
pairing no one ever heard of until last night.”
“Their
story is perfectly legitimate,” Samantha said, sniffing. “You only have to look at Barnabas to see how
much he resembles his father. And why
would they lie? They have their own
money. Barnabas told me so.”
“And
you believe him, just like that.”
Gabriel tittered. “You are a fool, Samantha.”
She
sounded bored suddenly, he thought, which was infuriating, as she must have
known it would be. “Whatever you say,
Gabriel. You know best, I’m certain.”
“Damn
right,” he muttered, and ran his hands over the withered broomsticks hidden
carefully by his darling wife beneath the thick knitted blanket dear Hortense,
the governess who departed both Collinwood and the earthly plane around the
same time, made for his birthday last year.
To hide them, his father’s
shame, his brother’s guilt. How Gabriel
hated them both.
Except
that Daniel was almost dead now, wasn’t he.
Yes, almost dead, and soon it would be forever.
Now
if only dear sister-in-law Samantha would follow suit. And, as long as he was wishing, why not wish
away hateful wife Edith while he was at it.
He
opened his mouth to express exactly that sentiment, but Samantha was already
gone, had left the room while he was petting his destroyed legs, and he hadn’t
even heard the serpentine hiss of her hideous orange gown that matched her
hideous orange hair at it must have swept, oh-so-imperiously, out of the
drawing room.
He
wished her dead. Oh, dear God how Gabriel wished Samantha Drew Collins was
dead.
“It
will do you no good, brother,” an amused, sardonic voice quipped from behind
him, and he spun his chair around to take in the grinning visage of his brother
Quentin, Quentin the handsome, Quentin the horse-hung, oh yes, had to hear
about that all his life, Quentin the best-loved. Quentin, Quentin, the son-of-a-bitch-bastard. Daddy’s pet. “Wishing her dead never does the trick. Believe me, I’ve tried it more time than
once.”
And
lest we forget, Gabriel thought, and Quentin is psychic; so psychic;
Daddy’s little mind reader. Why didn’t
it bother dear daddy Daniel, exposed to volumes of witchcraft and demonology as
a child, his own sister bearing the vampire curse after her death and – shh! we
don’t talk about that – resurrection; why didn’t Daniel see through Quentin and know him as the monster he was? The warlock?
There, say the word, Gabriel thought, teeth gritted; you are a decent
Christian man who only occasionally wishes his in-laws into their graves, it
isn’t as if you’d actually act on
those desires; but Quentin, ah, now Quentin
…
Conspiring
with that bastard Gerard Stiles, lately of Rose Cottage, whispering with
similarly supernaturally inclined Desmond Collins, the idiot son of that
nattering half-wit “lady novelist,” Flora Collins, dreaming up new ways to torment
his little brother. Crippled little brother, Gabriel thought, and felt one of his teeth
crack as they ground together like stones.
“You,”
Gabriel said calmly, despite the sudden jarring pain in his mouth, “would be
better suited using your talents for a more noble purpose than appearing from
nowhere to tease and taunt me.”
Quentin
must have secreted himself behind a drapery, Gabriel thought as his older
brother bounded into the center of the room, then draped his impossibly long –
and impossibly mobile – legs over the
arm of the sofa; certainly he can’t have concealed himself using magic. That … that was insane.
What isn’t around this house?
True.
“Such
as what, dear brother?” Quentin grinned at him.
“Enlarging the Collins fortune?
We’re already the richest family on the coast. Why ask for more?” He winked.
“Could it be that you and Edith need some additional padding in your purses?”
The
pain, Gabriel thought, concentrate on the pain, the pain, “No,” he said,
smiling pleasantly, “no, that’s not it.
You are … quite generous with your allowance. We lack for nothing.” The pain, the pain, singing the pain.
“And
the boys? Caleb, away at his boarding
school? Gregory, only a lad of sixteen
but already with his new wife and their growing passel of brats? They also lack for nothing?” He chuckled.
“Besides, Gregory is already using my
money to build Seaview, isn’t he. Why
don’t you and Edith go live there?”
Bastard,
bastard, sonofawhore, bastard; “I’m
referring,” Gabriel said silkily, “to our newest addition: Cousins Barnabas and Julia, appeared from
nowhere, claiming to spring from an
English branch of the family no one has ever heard of, just in time for the dispensation of Father’s worldly possessions
and all his effects.”
“Of
which you care nothing, of course,” Quentin said airily.
“I
know well enough who is to receive,” he said, his temper flaring at last, and
the flash in Quentin’s eyes told him that such a temper flare was exactly what he had been waiting for,
and Gabriel cursed himself now as well as his brother. “Just as I know that Tad stands to inherit
should something happening to you or Samantha.”
“I
wouldn’t worry about me,” Quentin sighed, and crossed one leg over the other,
one booted foot dangling lazily in mid-air.
“I’m not so sure about Samantha, but I can assure you that my assets
are, shall we say, well protected.” He
chuckled. “Well protected indeed.”
Bastard,
bastard, warlock bastard. “And after
Tad, then Caleb and then Gregory. The
line of succession is clear.”
“Relax,
Gabriel,” Quentin said, bored suddenly, just as Samantha had grown bored of
him. “You will always have a place to
stay in this house. I won’t even require that you play nice or take down the
religious relics you insist on hanging in every room in the house in addition
to your own room or stop bringing Lamar Trask here with any hopes of …” And he snickered again. “Conversion.”
“Lamar
Trask comes from a long line of clergymen,” Gabriel said, with that same lump
in his throat, the one that always seemed to arrive when Quentin poked, no
matter how gently (or not), at his piety.
“He is a decent, righteous man.”
“Certainly,
certainly,” Quentin said. “Who never
ever spends any time with the whores down at the docks.” Color rose in Gabriel’s cheeks, and Quentin
laughed again. “But don’t worry, little
brother. I’ll be sure to say nary a word
to beautiful Roxanne, no matter how her own fiancé disgusts her, even without
that stray bit of knowledge.” His smile
became sly, vulpine. “Besides. You’re forgetting Father’s wife in your
scheming about lines of succession. Our
dear and much beloved stepmother. Or
have you ruled her out so soon?”
Outside
the drawing room, Julia Collins, nee Hoffman, gradually materialized, at least
partially. Eavesdropping was never
easier than this, she thought with a pained smile, then faded away again, to
reappear moments later in the drawing room of the Old House. While it wasn’t nearly as destroyed as it had
been when Barnabas and Willie began the restoration in 1967, it was still no
picnic shaping it up again, especially since Barnabas was now a human, and
Julia, technically, couldn’t touch anything without exhausting an obscene
amount of energy.
“Did
you learn anything?” Barnabas asked, his hands worrying just below his
breastbone, as they always seemed to do these days. Faithful Ben, he thought, recalling how, only
two days ago, the aged Ben Stokes, his old servant, remarkably unperturbed by
his master’s sudden reappearance after nearly fifty years, as well as his
claims of traveling from a future time, had secured him more appropriate
clothing for a man of 1840.
“Nothing
really new,” Julia said. “Roxanne Drew
is engaged to Lamar Trask, as it turns out.”
“And
she’s still human?”
Julia
shrugged. “Neither Quentin nor Gabriel
made any more mention of her than that.
And while Samantha has spoken of her, she hasn’t mentioned whether she
has suffered any kind of accident, or a change.
Or if she’s ever seen during the day.”
“This
worries me,” Barnabas said. “I don’t
know how long we must remain in this time, or what we should or shouldn’t do.”
“We
don’t want to change too much,” Julia said.
“We could make the future bleaker than it already is.”
“Which
is why we must find Angelique,” Barnabas said.
“We must bring her out of the wall.”
“I
don’t know, Barnabas,” Julia grumbled. “We
don’t know if our plans in the future worked – if Angelique was able to project
her astral self back to this time.
There’s simply no way to know.
And if she didn’t …”
“…we’d
be dealing with the original Angelique,” Barnabas said, and covered his face
with his hands. “Which would make the
situation even graver than it already is.”
He peered at her from between the bars of his fingers. “Still, Julia … she’s our only hope of
returning to our own time.”
“I
could try to control the Parallel Time room again,” Julia said, but she didn’t
sound at all certain.
Barnabas seemed not to
hear her. “My body is, for all intents
and purposes, trapped here. And I’m
human, Julia. If anything should happen
to me …” He allowed his voice to trail
off. His eyes were very large and full
of pain. “It’s the rock and the hard
place. There is no good answer. None.”
Julia
wavered from sight suddenly, blinked out, and was gone.
Barnabas’
eyes widened, and he reached out, fumbling through empty air. “Julia?” he
cried. “Julia!”
I’m here, Barnabas.
Her
voice was faint, and contained a slight echoic quality, as if it came to him
from the end of a long hallway.
It’s … it’s so difficult to stay.
“Julia,”
Barnabas said sadly. “Dear friend. Don’t … don’t strain yourself.”
She
reappeared suddenly, though she was pale and washed out, as if she were a glass
filled with milk. When she spoke, she
sounded out of breath. “Don’t worry about
me. I’ll … I’ll be fine.”
“I
fear,” Barnabas said, niggling his lower lip, “I very much fear that we are
disturbing the future by drawing your spirit back to this time. Technically, it shouldn’t exist at all. Vicki’s work in 1897 undid what Petofi did to
you when he … when he killed you.” Snapped your neck like a twig: words unspoken.
“If
we bring Angelique back,” Julia said carefully, delicately, “her powers could
help focus the forces in … in that room.
Send my ghost back to the 1897 before Vicki made the changes, and my
present mind back to 1969.” She shook
her head. Her lips twitched into a
sudden smile at the absurdity of their discussion. “This is becoming ridiculous, Barnabas. I can’t keep track of what rules are what,
what time is what, what what is
what.”
“This
is a fool’s game,” Barnabas sighed. “And
we can’t keep it up much longer. How
long before you make some casual slip and reveal a little too much knowledge of
the Collins family?”
“Or
before I’m required to shake a hand or lift a coffee cup.” Her lips trembled into a colorless smile.
Barnabas
echoed her smile, but sadly. “We’re
going to fail. Aren’t we. We don’t even know why we’re here.”
“We’re
here to save them all,” Julia said. “And
if that means dragging Angelique out of that wall kicking and screaming …”
“Cursing
us all the way.”
“And
that would be literally.”
They
laughed together for a moment.
Outside,
lightning sliced the sky and thunder shook the foundations of the ancient
house.
Their
smiles faded simultaneously, and they could only look at each other with
exhausted wariness.
3
Roxanne
Drew stirred on the floor of Rose Cottage, a place she visited and stayed from
time to time, along with Flora Collins and her son Desmond. Her eyelids fluttered, and she placed two
fingers gingerly to the sensitive skin of her throat, then groaned and pulled
them back. She blinked at them blearily,
and saw that they were stained black in the dim light of the room. Blood, she thought dazedly, that’s my
blood.
“Welcome
back to the land of the living, my dear.”
Gerard, she thought, and clambered her way to her knees. She wanted to scream suddenly. Even the rustling of the gorgeous yellow gown
she had donned, foolishly, this morning when she was far less ignorant and a
million times more naive, ground like broken glass into her ears.
She
looked up, and there he was, grinning down at her, his enormous, sensual lips
split to reveal his strong white teeth.
“It’s like that for a time, from what I understand. Your senses have become … quite
developed. Far more than those of the
average human. It takes some getting
used to.”
She
opened her mouth to demand information, to force him to tell her what he had
done to her, what had happened, but
instead her voice emerged from her cracked lips in a guttural, animal
growl. “I’m … hungry,” she said in that new, wolfen voice.
“Of
course you are,” he clucked, “poor darling.
And don’t you worry your pretty new fangs about it. I’ll find you a plump baby to eat,” and he
waved a dismissive hand, “or something.”
Fangs?
But
he was right. She could feel them. Her teeth had somehow become fangs.
She tested them gingerly with the tip of her tongue, and her stomach
clenched tightly with simultaneous revulsion and satisfaction as a bloom of
copper tanged on her tongue.
What happened to me?
“You
know too much, dearest,” Gerard Stiles purred, examining his sleeves as he did
so for invisible specks of dust amidst the florid cuffs of his dress-shirt that
emerged like foam from his black frock-coat.
“Which is why you had to be silenced.”
“But
I’m not silent,” Roxanne growled. “I can
speak. I can think. I’ll tell everyone what I saw.”
“I
think you won’t,” Gerard said, smiling all the while his blithe smile. “The moment you do, you will reveal
yourself. Or I’ll reveal you as the monster you newly are. And there will be a vampire hunt at
Collinwood, with you, dearest, on the receiving end of the stake.”
Vampire?
I’m … a vampire?
What
did that mean, exactly?
“No
one believes in vampires,” she spat. “Who
would believe you?”
“Quentin,
for one,” Gerard said. “He isn’t exactly
a warlock, but he’s powerful enough, for a beginner dabbling, as he does, in
the black arts. And Desmond, his best
friend, has actually encountered vampires before. In the West Indies, it seems. And the others? Well, they’ll fall in line … do what they’re
told. And … there have been vampires at
Collinwood before, you know.”
“Samantha
wouldn’t let them … do what you’re suggesting.”
Gerard’s
reply was smooth, quiet, dangerous, silk running easily from a spool. “Samantha will do whatever I tell her to do,
dear heart.”
Roxanne’s
eyes widened. “You … and Samantha …”
“Oh,
you needn’t be so banal. She doesn’t love Quentin. She hasn’t for some time. And, it seems, that of all the gentlemen
currently housed on the Collinwood estate, I am the only one who can satisfy
dear Samantha’s, shall we say, itch?
Yes. Her itch.”
Roxanne
felt her eyes change, and knew that they had become different somehow, but she had no idea how or
why. She felt a sudden urge to rend and
to tear, and the fangs currently occupying her mouth grew longer and
sharper. She lifted both her hands, and
through a red haze she saw that each finger had lengthened until they grew
several inches beyond the average human’s, and each one was tipped with a
cruel, curved nail. Perfect for gutting, this new part of Roxanne’s mind
whispered; though she wasn’t anything resembling a shrinking violet, had never
been anything so weak and vulnerable, she didn’t believe until now that a word
like “gutting” even existed in her vocabulary.
But
now she could imagine gutting Gerard Stiles.
She could imagine doing this with no trouble at all.
But
he lifted his hand, and clutched between his fingers was a small totem, a talisman,
two crossed bars: of course Roxanne had
seen a crucifix before, she was accustomed to wearing one most days.
Now
it flashed with a silver-blue light that seared her eyes and sent bile rising
into the back of her throat. She found
herself uttering a wounded, whining moan, and she threw her arms up to protect
her eyes from that dreadful dazzle.
“I
think not, Roxanne,” Gerard said. His
voice was stone, implacable.
“Why
did you do this to me?” she whispered.
“Because,”
and his lips split into an even wider grin, if that was at all possible,
“you’re going to help me get what I’ve always wanted.”
She
dared to lift her eyes, then moaned again.
The cross remained aloft, just within her line of vision. “And what’s that?” she snarled.
“Power,”
Gerard Stiles said, and his eyes gleamed in the dimness of Rose Cottage. “Absolute.
Enough to change the world if I want.”
She
remembered the bat that flew from the shadow at his feet; she remembered the
guttural words he called to summon it; she remembered throwing open the door to
the cottage and there he was, the dead woman at his feet, her heart held,
dripping, in his hand, and she knew that she was in his thrall now, that
whatever dark power Gerard Stiles possessed, it had swallowed her whole.
The
cross was gone. He batted his eyes at
her. “What do you say?” he said.
She
took a breath, though she knew instinctively now that breathing was no longer
necessary.
“Whatever
you need,” Roxanne said. She licked her
lips. They were cracked. She was thirsty; god, she was thirsty.
“Whatever you need … I will help you get it. Just … make the hunger stop. Please.”
He
smiled and smiled still, and suddenly, horribly, god or whomever help her, she
found that she was smiling back.
4
The
West Wing was alive with shadows; the house, Barnabas thought sadly, his
father’s pride and joy, wasn’t even fifty years old, and already this wing was
abandoned, and more and more of the rooms were sealed off, closed up … or bricked up.
“This
one,” Julia marveled, her voice soft and wondering. She reached out with her spectral fingers. “I can … oh Barnabas, I can feel her in there. She’s … she’s trapped!” Her almond hazel eyes were wide, and her
nostrils, though they didn’t breathe air, flared in that typical Julia fashion
with which he had become so familiar, and which he found he quite adored.
“I
remember it like it was yesterday,” Barnabas murmured.
“So
do I,” Julia replied, and when he looked up at her, eyebrows raised, she smiled
ruefully and said, “I was there too, Barnabas.
Though at the time I peered through the eyes of Natalie DuPres.”
“Of
course,” he said. “I forget sometimes
that you were there as well.”
“It’s
difficult for me to connect that Angelique with the one woman we’ve come to
know. Even Cassandra …” And she shivered, remembering the torment
Angelique’s vampire-self had visited upon her, how she had raped her mind and
body repeatedly, feasting on her blood, commanding her to provide her with
nourishment. And the pain … she didn’t
like to think of it. “Even Cassandra
feels like a distant memory. A dream I
had once.”
“Or
a nightmare,” Barnabas said. “Julia, are
you certain we should do this?”
“It
was her plan,” Julia said, but reluctantly.
“She knew that her powers would be restored once she inhabited this time,
and that she might use them to make changes in the present.”
“If
the I Ching works.”
“If.”
They
paused for a moment, and both looked intently at the wall, covered in cobwebs
and layers of dust. If you weren’t
looking for it, Barnabas thought, you’d never even know it was there.
Finally
he lifted the pick axe he discovered in a shed behind the Old House.
Julia
pursed her lips, then nodded.
Barnabas
swung the axe.
They
both winced at the sudden exhalation of icy air that flowed out at them from
inside that room, Angelique’s when she had been a servant in 1796, and the room
where Barnabas had discovered her witchery and summarily murdered her.
The
room of the curse, he thought.
But I’m human again.
We
are taking a terrible risk, Julia had pointed out to him. If this is the wrong Angelique, Barnabas
thought now, as both he and Julia peered into the room … if she isn’t the one
from the present …
“I
see her body,” he said in a strangled tone.
His gorge rose. “The … the
bones.”
“I
don’t see her,” Julia said. “I don’t feel her, either. She … I don’t understand this, Barnabas, but
… but Angelique …”
He
looked at her then with wide, terrified eyes.
“She’s
already gone.”
5
Leticia Faye was terrified and she was filthy and she hadn’t dared to step foot in Collinwood in almost two days, not since that frightening séance Gerard forced her to perform; not since he chased her from the Old House with the intent, she knew, to kill her. The séance failed, she thought now, kneeling beside the little stream she discovered, cupping her hands, filling them with water, then slurping greedily; the séance Gerard thought would summon all the power of Judah Zachery. It failed. Think of that and take heart.
Carolyn … Carolyn Stoddard…
That
strange girl’s name … that strange girl. She looked like me, Leticia thought, wiping
the back of her mouth absently, but she wasn’t from now. She was from … she
hardly dared think the words.
The future.
Some
future time.
Certainly
not what Gerard was expecting.
I
can’t go back to that house, she thought, and trembled; her stomach pulsed and
ached; she hadn’t eaten in nearly two days, and she was weaker from hunger than
perhaps she realized. I can never, never
go back … not while he lives there.
He’ll kill me.
I have to stop him.
But
how? She had psychic powers, that much
was true. But what else did she have?
He is near.
Leticia
froze. She had the Sight, and sometimes
she heard whispers (or Whispers) that told her truth: what was
and what might be.
This,
she knew, was the latter.
Gerard.
Gerard Stiles. He is near and he
is close to reaching his goal.
Must
not be allowed to happen.
How
can I stop him though? Leticia thought, and began to sob. I’m so tired, she thought, and so … so hungry
… there’s nothing I can do …
You have the power to stop him. You can do it.
“Leticia?”
She
let out a small scream, but it was only Daphne Harridge, the new governess,
dark-haired, dark-eyed, and pretty of course.
She felt a stab of jealousy.
Quentin likes them pretty, she thought darkly. “We’ve all been so worried!” Daphne said, and
put an arm around her. “Thank goodness
you’re not hurt! Where on earth have you
been?”
It
was too much. Too much kindness. Or perhaps she was nearer to exhaustion than
she thought.
Leticia
began to sob.
6
Samantha
stood before the fire and brooded. She
found that she brooded a lot these days, more than was probably good for
her. Even Tad, her beautiful son, the
apple of her eye, had commented on it.
But not Quentin, she thought sourly, and felt her mouth twist hatefully
so that her entire face went with it, turned into a harridan’s scrawl. But she couldn’t help it. Thinking of her husband at all these days
caused such a reaction.
Gerard
has also noticed, a traitor’s voice whispered, and that’s what really galls you.
You don’t want anything to hurt your precious, precious Gerard. You don’t want to drive him away.
Like you drove Quentin away.
“That
isn’t fair,” Samantha whispered furiously.
She felt tears bloom behind her eyes and blinked them back
ferociously. She wasn’t going to cry …
not now. Not ever. She and Roxanne had made do their entire
lives, taking care of their father after their mother’s untimely death when
Roxanne was little more than a baby, and the last time Samantha had dared to
weep was by herself, in the dark on the night of her mother’s funeral. That was the last time. And by god, she wasn’t about to start now.
Her
marriage to Quentin hadn’t been satisfying since … when, exactly? Could she pinpoint a time? She didn’t think so. Surely not since Tad had reached adolescence,
if not long before. Quentin travelled,
love to travel, and since their marriage began he always travelled alone. Her face twisted again. Except now he takes Tad, she thought, and
clenched and unclenched her fists; now he takes Tad and he never wanted to take
me, never asked. And I wouldn’t have gone
anyway.
She
felt horror bloom inside her. My god,
she thought, and her stomach clenched, my god, am I jealous of my son? My beautiful, marvelous son?
She
wanted to sob.
Why, oh why, did I marry a Collins?
Money. Prestige.
And more: she had honestly loved
Quentin Collins once upon a time. Like a
fairy tale. The handsome scion of the
Collins family, beautiful blue eyes, wild swirl of hair, so tall, so sweet when
he wanted to be.
And
now this governess: Miss Daphne
Harridge, the latest in a long line of scullery maids and cooks and
housekeepers, all doomed to be bedded and subsequently abandoned by her husband
Quentin.
There’s something different about this one.
Samantha
didn’t know how she knew this, but she did.
It didn’t make her feel any better about her own tryst with Gerard
Stiles, either.
Daphne
Harridge, she thought.
Kill her.
Her
eyes widened. Where had a thought like that come from?
Still. It was tempting. Tantalizing, actually.
Her
fingers curled, tight tight tight, into a fist.
The
doors to the drawing room opened. “Oh!”
a woman exclaimed. She was wearing a new
frock Samantha had never noticed before, or had possibly never seen: a
beautiful blue and white dress with a striking opalescent jewel pinned where
the lace hung between her breasts. Her
hair, so blonde it was almost white, was pulled back into ringlets, another
style Samantha didn’t recognize. Her
mother-in-law was not known for her fashion sense or even her ability to
maintain a fetching hair style. Samantha
frowned. Her mother-in-law frowned back. “I didn’t know anyone was in here. I’m so sorry.”
Samantha
offered the interloper her iciest of smiles.
“You needn’t worry, Mrs. Collins.
You may enjoy this room to your leisure.
I was just leaving.”
The
other woman didn’t smile apologetically or offer her usual attempt at warmth,
faux though it undoubtedly was. “If you
wish.”
Samantha
hesitated. “Are you feeling all right?” Ordinarily, her mother-in-law – stepmother-in-law, that is, and Gabriel
in particular would never let her or anyone forget it – would try to battle
with her with every passive aggressive tool at her disposal. Or she would cry. Daniel Collins’ second wife, nearly thirty
years his junior, was very, very good at crying when she needed to.
But
she did not cry. Instead, this new woman
merely raised her eyebrows. “Of
course. Of course I am. Why wouldn’t I be?”
Samantha
placed one hand against one of the drawing room doors, and idly played with the
knob. “I … don’t know. You look differently, that’s all. Something … something about your eyes.”
Mrs.
Collins laughed, and that was a different sound now as well. Harsh, grating, like the cawing of dark
birds. “I don’t know what you could
possibly mean. They’re the same as
they’ve always been. Why don’t you look
into them … closer?”
“No.
No, I don’t think I –”
“Yes.” Hissing.
Like a cat. “Come closer,
Samantha Collins. Closer …”
Samantha
found herself leaning forward … forward … gazing into those eyes … gray … green
… blue … so large … so very large …
“No,”
she said, and reared back, placing a trembling hand to her forehead. She was dizzy. Why was she dizzy?
There
was another new look on her mother-in-law’s face she had never seen before …
sadistic. Vile. Cruel.
Horror
filled her mouth like thick, black tar.
“Come
closer, Samantha,” her mother-in-law said, and grinned, and her eyes …
…oh
god, her eyes …
Her eyes were black.
Depthless. Solid ebony.
No!
Oh god, no!
Samantha
choked back a sob and fled the room and its monstrous inhabitant without
looking back.
No comments:
Post a Comment