Shadows on the Wall Chapter 75
by Nicky
ACT THREE
1
Vicki fell back on her knees with a keening wail of
desperation and
frustration.
The power that crackled obsidian fire between her fingers
dissipated and fell away, and she felt it all begin to
cool and fade away
inside her. The
black in her eyes faded to brown. She
slammed a fist against
the carpet, and felt hot tears begin to course down
her cheeks. She wiped them
away with the back of her arm, but more fell in their
place.
She didn't understand, she didn't understand at all,
and that was the most
frustrating.
She was powerful. She knew it,
could feel it; everytime she
opened that door within herself she knew it grew a
little wider, a little more
difficult to close, but it was worth it, because the
power inside was like a
great furnace.
It came from her; she was the power, and it had always been
enough before.
She had undone Count Petofi's mind switch with Quentin, trapped
the Count within his own ring, brought Professor
Stokes back from the darkness
of his coma, freed Carolyn from the grip of the
Roget-thing and banished said
thing to a dimension of unspeakable torment, saved David
from the Leviathans,
and fried two threatening vampires to a crisp. She wasn't just powerful; she
was the power itself.
So why couldn't she bring her lover back from the abyss?
"I can't give up," she thought, and tottered
back to her feet. She stood
before him, swaying a little, and stared down at him
... and for just a moment
felt a bolt of something so pure, so vile, swim
through her that at first she
couldn't identify it.
And when she did, her mouth fell open and she shook her
head in vehement denial.
Hatred. A
hatred so black and consuming that it had threatened, momentarily,
to overwhelm her, and she had almost —
Almost what?
Given up?
And not just that.
Bile rose in her throat in a burning tide, and she
covered her face with her
hands and sobbed helplessly.
I almost gave up, she thought, and that means nothing
more than letting the
power take over, a living tide, a thing of blackness;
I almost let it take over
... and I
almost burned my lover to a crisp. And I
could do it. With little
effort. With no
effort. Just ... give up.
"No," she snarled. "There has to be a way. I can fix this. I can do it."
She raised her hands and willed the power to rise in
her again, and felt the
door spring open and a tide of something, roiling and
black and awesome, build
inside her, huge and leaping like fire like love like
a tide hot fearsome
ferocious insatiable hot hot and cold nothing like
cold ice ice ice —
"NO!" And someone slammed against her and
knocked her to the ground, and the
power fell apart into invisible shards, and she cried
out, a cheated, wounded
wail.
There were people in the door, three faces, pale and
chalky, like sheep, and
the man before her, the man rising to his feet and
staring at her like some new
specimen of monster, this was someone new, someone
she'd never seen before in
her life, and how dare he —
"I'm sorry," the stranger said sheepishly,
and offered her her his hand.
Dazed, she took it, and allowed him to pull her to her
feet. "I didn't mean to
do it like that.
But the air — I mean, I've seen things like that before I
guess, but never so black. And I've never heard it scream like that, the
air
... like
something alive. Like something was
killing it. And I didn't want
you to be hurt."
"Vicki —" one of the doorway people said,
and it was Barnabas, and his face was
like paper.
Barnabas is back! some distant
part of her thought, and then she
saw him — really saw him — and she knew what had
happened to him. Again.
Somehow. And it
all began to make a lot of sense.
"Who are you?" she asked the man who had
tackled her like a linebacker. He was
handsome in a dull sort of way; lantern jaw, tousled
brown hair, dark eyes.
And then she felt him, without even intending to do
so, felt inside him, and
she recoiled.
There was a darkness there, like a seed planted deep inside,
like a tree, but stunted and dead, cut off and away,
but a darkness
nonetheless. A
power. Potent. And tappable.
She licked her lips.
And he saw her do it.
"My name is Schuylar Rumson," he said. "And you're Victoria Winters."
"Now that's hardly fair," she said, and
tossed her head coquettishly. "You
know me, and I don't know a thing about you."
He scowled at her, and she felt that pang of fear
again, distantly, and she
hated it, because he did know — he could see inside
her just as well as she
could see in him, and it made her afraid. Afraid and ashamed. "I don't think
that's true now, do you?" he said, and smiled,
but his eyes were flinty and
watchful.
She opened her mouth to reply, and then saw the others
in the doorway, lurking
beside the vampire-man-then- vampire-again, and her
the words died in her
throat. Dark,
bitter amusement replaced them, and she couldn't help but laugh.
"Well, well, well," she chuckled. "If it isn't Cassandra Collins. Or is it
Miranda tonight?
It's so hard to keep up with you."
Angelique quailed, and Vicki laughed again. She could smell the fear coming
off of her in waves; it was a terrible smell, an
irritating smell, like iron
shavings, like spoiled tomato sauce, like curdled
milk. It made her want to
darken, to reach inside herself and —
Sky Rumson dropped a hand over hers, and Vicki bared
her teeth, but froze under
his forcible — and yet somehow deeply patient and
... and god, caring — stare,
and found that she couldn't move at all. "Don't," he said simply. "You don't
want to hurt anybody else, do you?"
Her eyes narrowed.
"I don't know what you mean," she said icily.
"Quentin!" Julia cried, and knelt beside
him. Vicki had to quash the urge to
knock her aside with an energy bolt. Besides, she thought, annoyed, Mr.
Schuylar Rumson would probably just get in the
way. Whoever — or whatever —
the hell he is.
Julia pressed her fingers against Quentin's limp
wrist, and then against his
throat.
"He's alive," she said, brow furrowed. "His pulse is steady. I don't
understand —"
Vicki rolled her eyes.
Sky joined Julia next to Quentin, and placed his
fingers against the other
man's temples, then closed his eyes. "He's gone," he said after a
moment.
"Quentin Collins is not at home."
Angelique rushed to his side. "What does that mean?" she
cried. "Sky? What's
the matter with him?"
"I was trying to help," Vicki said,
"when Mr. Rumson knocked me
down."
Sky raised an eyebrow.
"Tried to help him? Miss
Winters, you're responsible
for his condition."
Vicki felt blood rushing crimson to her cheeks, and
railed at herself that she
was unable to stop herself from something so simple —
so human — as blushing.
Barnabas was staring at her with something like
horror, and for a moment (and
only a moment) she felt the blush in her cheeks
again. From shame. But that
ice inside her rose again, and she returned his gaze
levelly until he looked
away, his eyes low with guilt.
"The power," Sky said quietly. "There's a lot of it inside you, isn't
there."
Vicki said nothing.
Sky shrugged.
"Must be important to you.
Has to be, if you were willing to do
whatever it was you did to him." He jerked a
thumb in Quentin's direction.
"You don't know anything," Vicki said.
"Sure I do," Sky said. He stood beside her now, and something was
rising in
him. Vicki
could feel all the hair on her body beginning to stand up, and a
tiny spark of terror broke through the sheath of ice
inside her. "I know you.
I can feel you, Victoria Collins."
Vicki gasped and tried to move away, but she
couldn't. She was bound to the
floor, and Sky was very near to her.
"Who are you?" she whispered. There were tears in her eyes, and they hurt,
they burned and they dug at her, but she couldn't
blink them away.
"That's who you are, isn't it? A Collins?
You know it, but it doesn't matter.
All that
matters is now. I can feel the power
inside you, Victoria. I had a
lot of power once too.
Might be that I still do. I'm not
really sure. To be
honest, I'm a little afraid to test it out." His
eyes were glowing now, the
pupils dilating and contracting, dilating and
contracting; red lightning
flashed inside them, and crackled between his
fingers.
"Sky —" Angelique said, her voice tense with
worry.
"So much power," Sky said, his voice soft
and caressing, and his eyes were
totally black now.
"It's dangerous. Alluring,
but difficult. Such a burden.
Why don't you just let me —" And suddenly, quick
as a cat, quick as lightning,
quicker than time and in the taking of a breath, he
slammed one hand against
Vicki's breast.
She arched backwards and tried to scream; her eyes flew open
and glowed a dark, hellish obsidian; a surge of power,
black, always black,
flowed out of her and into Sky Rumson; he stumbled
backwards but was held aloft
by the energy around him that now began to glow a
feverish red. With that same
devil's speed he spun around and placed both his hands
on the temples of
Quentin Collins.
The power around him faded to a soft pink; Sky's breathing
came in huge, snuffling gasps; "Suscito!" he
commanded, and "Sentio!
Cogito!"
And Quentin sat up with a surge of power; his eyes
bulged, and he opened his
mouth to suck in a huge gasp of air. Sky fell backwards, drained, exhausted,
and the power around him snapped and popped, then
finally dissipated.
"Quentin!" Julia cried, and scrambled
forward to examine him.
He blinked at her with wide blue eyes, but still dull
and dazed. "V-Vicki?" he
whispered. His
voice was harsh and his breathing labored; he placed a hand to
his forehead and winced. He shook his head, as if to clear his thoughts,
and
then let his eyes scan the people before him. Sky Rumson had sank to his knees
with his head down, breathing deeply and then exhaling
slowly and carefully;
Angelique sat at his side, one hand on his shoulder,
but her face was shadowed
with trouble; Barnabas cradled Vicki in his arms, and
held her as her head
drooped backwards and her eyes fluttered.
"What happened?" Quentin asked, then
clutched his head again. "Ow,"
he
murmured.
"You don't remember?" Julia monitored him
carefully.
"I don't ...
it's hard to remember," he said.
"Or to think at all." His eyes
fell on Barnabas and Vicki, and he tried to sit up,
then fell backwards onto
the sofa.
"Vicki," he groaned.
"How is she? What happened
to her?"
Sky lifted his head.
"That's what we're trying to figure out, Mr. Collins."
Quentin scowled at him. "Who the hell are you?"
"Schuylar Rumson." Quentin's eyes darted to
Angelique, and widened as she
nodded. "I
brought you back, Mr. Collins. Don't ask me from where; I'm not
sure I could tell you even if I did know. A dark place.
Cold. Not ... not
somewhere I'd want to be."
"And Barnabas ..." Quentin said in a near
whisper.
Julia squeezed his hand. "We have a lot to discuss,
Quentin," she said, and
her voice was thin, like paper.
Vicki groaned and opened her eyes, and they were brown
and lucid. She blinked,
and rubbed her forehead. "Hurts," she whispered. She looked into Barnabas'
eyes, then scuttled away from him, shaking her head
and whimpering.
"Sky?" Angelique whispered. Her hand trembled in his.
"I'm fine," he said, but his face was pale
and his hands were shaking like
little birds.
"Miss Winters ... Victoria
...?"
Vicki opened her mouth, then closed it, and dropped
her head. "Oh," she said,
and then, "Oh ..." and covered her face with
her hands. Her shoulders shook,
and her hair, now more than half a fall of snowy
white, fell about her like a
shroud. They
watched her silently, unsure, all of them, their faces white and
their eyes wide and their mouths tightly closed. Finally she lifted her head
and blinked at them, and her face was strained and wet
with tears. "I'm
sorry," she said; her voice grated and cracked,
and her eyes were wide with
misery.
"I'm so ... sorry."
No one said a word.
They're afraid of me, Vicki thought, and looked at her
hands. They were small
and nicely shaped, even though one of her nails was
chipped. Nice hands, she
thought, pretty little hands. That could end the world right now, if I
wished
it to be so.
She wanted to cover her face again and moan.
Instead, she said, "I don't know what you did,
Mr. Rumson ... but thank you.
So ... so
much."
Sky nodded. He
still looked drained, but the color was returning to his
cheeks. Vicki watched
the two of them, Angelique and Schuylar Rumson, and
thought how much in love they seemed, their hands
linked, their eyes returning
to each other every few seconds. She felt a stab of jealousy, then willed it
away. It went,
easily, like leaves drifting away in a gentle wind. She looked
to Quentin, then looked away. I can't ever have him, she thought remotely,
never touch him.
Ever again. Not after ...
She swallowed.
It felt like glass in her throat.
"Sorry," she said, and watched her hands. "God."
2
Later, Julia watched the moon sailing through the sky,
and puffed distractedly
on her cigarette.
It's not a man, she thought, and shivered a little; at
least, not a living man. It's like a skull in the sky. Always watching us.
Always aware ...
but dead just the same. Just
... dead.
Barnabas put a hand on her shoulder, and she jumped a
little. His fingers were
cold and hard, like marble, like a statue. He tried to smile, but it didn't
fit his face very well; it was hard too, and
mask-like. "I'm sorry for
everything I've ever put you through," he said,
and though his face was cold
and watchful, his voice was warm. Tender.
"Julia," he said, as if tasting her
name.
She shrugged.
"Occupational hazard," she said. It was mid-March, and the wind
sailing over and across her was still jagged with a
hint of ice and redolent of
the salt of the sea.
Not usually an unpleasant odor, but tonight ... tonight,
the associations were just a little too ...
She didn't know.
"You're going to be fine," Barnabas
said. "So is Vicki. So is everyone at
Collinwood. We
will fight these things; we'll beat them back.
Humankind has
done it before.
We will prevail."
"I'm afraid, Barnabas," she said
softly. He put his arm around her shoulder
and drew her close.
"I can feel them all the time now.
Watching ...
listening.
Waiting. They're like ... like snakes in my brain."
"Professor Stokes can help."
"He's a part of it too."
"But he's fighting. So can you."
She closed her eyes.
"Oh Barnabas," she whispered, "Barnabas, I want to. So
badly. These
creatures are responsible for so much pain and suffering. Vicki
..." Her voice trailed off, and for a moment she
seemed to go deep inside
herself. She
returned with a tiny start. He watched
her questioningly. "I've
seen her like that before," she said at
last. "When she brought Eliot back
from his coma.
I was scared then, but she was nothing like she was tonight.
The air — the air around her was screaming, Barnabas,
like it was in pain.
Like it was dying.
And it was all black."
"She's afraid now. She's promised to stop."
"I don't think it's that easy," Julia said,
and worried her lower lip. "Her
power comes from Petofi, and Petofi is a part of the
Leviathans somehow."
"She told us.
She's fighting too. She has been,
it sounds like, for awhile.
She cured David —"
"And she nearly killed Quentin. Her powers are dangerous and uncontrollable,
Barnabas, and who knows how long this ... this abstinence will last? She has
a taste for it now; it's in her blood. Like an addiction."
"You forget," Barnabas said. "I know how that feels."
She touched his hand, his cold, dead hand, and did not
shudder or tremble. "Oh
Barnabas," she said. "I could never forget. But look at you. You've
conquered your demons, and these were the literal
kind. You could have chosen
to continue down that path, that darkness, but you
didn't. You came back."
"I have so much to make up for," Barnabas
said. "Sabrina Stuart —" His
voice
choked off.
"We're going to make it better," Julia said,
and squeezed his hand. "I
promise."
He broke away from her, pulling his fingers from hers,
and she frowned, but
forced her forehead to smooth again. She followed him to the door of Chris'
cottage. No
lights burned, but Julia figured that he was sleeping it off.
They had disposed of Nathan Forbes' body after Julia
had given Chris a sedative
and put him to bed.
It's really very sad, Julia had thought at the time,
helping Barnabas drag the tarp-covered body while
ducking branches, that we
have to plan where to bury the bodies now. The forest near Collinwood is full
of 'em.
Barnabas didn't bother knocking; he simply faded
through the door. Julia
frowned again, and wondered if he even realized that
he had done it. The
vampire inside him is stronger than he thinks, she
told herself; we have to be
careful. Not
out of the woods quite yet.
"Julia!" Barnabas cried, and the alarm in
his voice spurred her to running.
She dashed through the door, her long green coat
flapping behind her like
wings, and she nearly stumbled before she came to a
complete stop. He was
standing next to the kitchen table, a note held tight
in his hands. "It's from
Chris," he said, and handed it to her.
B AND J, it read, I'M SORRY. DIDN'T TAKE THE SEDATIVE. HAVE TO GET AWAY.
FROM HERE. FROM
THIS TOWN. FROM JOE AND FROM
EVERYONE. THE ANIMAL IS THERE ALL THE TIME NOW, AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE MEANS
ANYMORE. I DON'T WANT TO HURT ANYBODY ELSE.
I'LL CALL. TAKE CARY OF AMY. PLEASE DON'T TRY TO FIND ME. I'M SORRY.
She let the note sail from her fingers and see-saw
lazily down to the floor.
They stared at each other wordlessly for a
moment. "He's gone," she said
at
last. A tear
ran from one eye down her cheek, and she made no move to brush it
away. Her chest
felt heavy and hot. Her fingers
itched. "He's really gone."
"Dammit," Barnabas growled.
"My fault," Julia said. "All my fault."
"You were trying to help him."
"Some help I turned out to be. He's even worse off than he was before."
Her
eyes widened with terror. "Barnabas," she said, clutching at
his arm,
"Barnabas, you don't suppose he went off to
... to ..." She couldn't even say
it.
Barnabas shook his head slowly. "I can sense him," he admitted at
last.
"Things are different now, Julia. For me.
For Vicki. Even for Sky Rumson.
The Leviathans are a power of darkness none of us have
ever encountered before,
and somehow they're heightening our powers as
well. It frightens me ... but I
can still sense Christopher Jennings. He's far from here by now — I couldn't
follow him if my life depended on it, or his, or yours
— but still alive. And
powerful. He'll
go far from here, I'm sure ... but I
think he'll be back."
"Poor Amy," Julia said. "I'll have to tell her tomorrow."
"If she is as Vicki says, you may not have to
worry. I don't think the real
Amy Jennings is in there anymore."
"Oh god," Julia said, and she couldn't stop
crying, even as she folded herself
into his arms, "oh god, Barnabas, what are we
going to do? What can we do?"
He held her out before him and stared into her
eyes. "What we always do,
Julia. What we
will continue to do. What we have to.
"We'll survive."
3
And this is the way that awful night, that dreadful
night, that long and
terrible (and miles to go before they sleep) night,
finally, irrevocably ends:
Chris Jennings places his chin in the palm of his
hand, and watches the scenery
speed by him, now gently bathed in the rose of the
early morning sun. He has
never felt so alive in his life, and this terrifies
him. He can feel the
darkness pulsing like a heartbeat as he leaves
Collinsport behind. He needs to
be away from humans, any humans, all humans. Somewhere quiet, with trees,
maybe mountains.
A place he can think. And
sleep. Sleep with no dreams. He
closes his eyes.
God, what he would give to not dream.
Angelique Rumson lies in the arms of the man she
loves, and places her head on
Sky's barrel chest.
Their lovemaking was fierce at first, frantic in its
intensity and the heat of their desire, but ended
quietly, gently, less a bang
but never a whimper.
I'm afraid, she tells him now, I can't help it; it's
silly I know but I'm afraid. Of me?
he asks. She nods. She has to.
She can
never lie to him again. I saw you, Sky, she says, and a tear slips
unbidden
from her eye. I
saw what it did to you, and I'm sorry I ever — No, he says,
and touches her lips with one fingertip. He is serious, but his love for her
bathes her in warmth, and it's okay. She feels that; everything is going to be
okay. You were
right, Sky says, and strokes her hair. I
have to help. It'll
be hard, but I have to. I don't have any other choice. This is something I
have to do. To
make it all right again. And you will,
she whispers in his
ear, and she loves him again, as she has never loved
him before, but deep down,
she is still afraid.
Maggie Evans whispers one word under her breath as she
approaches the House by
the Sea: infusco, she says, and can feel the magic
work as her hair changes
from a dark copper to a fathomless, shiny
obsidian. Nicholas mustn't know what
has happened this night. He's a fool really, a victim of his own vanity.
Easily disposed of.
And she told Professor Stokes the truth.
She can't stop,
and she doesn't think she ever will. A door has opened inside her, and it's
far too late to close it now. But she's moved beyond Nicholas, beyond evil,
beyond feeling.
This might have frightened her once.
It doesn't now. She
slips through the door like a shadow, and glides up
the stairs. He's in bed.
Waiting for her.
Smirking. His face is a
weasel's. She can't even hate him.
He doesn't speak; he slips inside her, but she is
already occupied. She is
Maggie Evans.
She is darkness.
Julia Hoffman administers an injection of her newly
developed serum into
Barnabas' arm.
She'll prepare one for Carolyn later in the afternoon, after
she allows herself a long nap. It won't do any good. She'll dream.
She
doesn't want to; she fears the dreams; she fears the
voices; she fears herself.
The needle slides into Barnabas' skin like a fang, and
he doesn't wince. She
wonders if he even feels it. When it's all over he squeezes her hand. I don't
know what I'd do without you, he says. She looks at him. Looks at the
syringe.
Catches a glimpse of her reflection in a beaker. Alone.
Talking to
herself.
Talking to a ghost. She looks at
the syringe. She looks at him.
Let's hope we never find out, she says.
Victoria Winters (never Collins, she thinks darkly,
and then wills the darkness
away) watches the sea rage beneath her from where she
stands near the edge of
Widow's Hill.
The ledge should crumble away beneath me, she thinks; it would
be an easy death, the one I deserve. I don't think I can do this. I don't
think I can stop.
I don't know if I can leave the black garden, oh god, oh god
I just don't know.
When Quentin appears behind her she can sense him, and is
disturbed by the fact that she can sense him, but she
doesn't protest when he
slides his arms around her and pulls her to him. He nuzzles her gently. You
could never hurt me, he says, and breathes deeply into
her hair. There's more
white than dark now.
He pretends not to notice. We can
watch the sunrise from
here, he whispers into her ear. It's a beautiful spot. You're beautiful. I
love you, Victoria.
I have always loved you. She
turns to kiss him, without
words, without tears, and though she knows she can
never touch him she is
touching him, because his love for her is pure and
white and it will redeem
her, and god and everyone, she wants to be
redeemed. I just hope it isn't too
late, she thinks, but while she's in the arms of
Quentin Collins, she knows
that everything is going to be all right.
And the sea continues to sing its ancient song.
TO BE CONTINUED ...
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